Wednesday, May 16, 2012
was thinking abt pika today again.
and felt like coming here... miss my little boy very much.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Friday, April 20, 2012
really miss Pika a lot.....
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Friday, April 13, 2012
disappearing from time to time is good.really do not like bothering people at all about anything.
Wednesday, I had to watch the most horrible thing happening...
I know what the problem is now. I really hate myself for not feeling that the condition was urgent enough... I really should have known but I don't know whats wrong with me.
I should have consulted someone else who bothered more I guess...
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Monday, April 09, 2012
what is the pointif there are no more similarities to speak of.
if there is no more trust nor acceptance.
i ate where i shat. and i regret. tts all i can say. hahaha.
not funny lah.
im sure things will get better after the bitterness and hate.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Thursday, April 05, 2012
the fatty is so cute.lying on the floor being fat. haha...
and i rly feel like going to get macs.
didnt have a very satisfying dinner..
buttttt im abit slpy and lazy. soooo..
i guess...
i shall not. go. as usual...
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Friday, March 30, 2012
ok. everything is left up to fate now.still feel like a failure though.
after everything.
still have those resumes to send out.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
wentshopping at bugis on wed with my eldest sis. ohoh. before tt we went to st nix to have orange bowl agn wee...
and i totally overslpt.
and she totally sat on the floor at bugis mrt while reading and waiting for me. hahaha.
from the distance she rly look like small girl lor.
anws.
aft st nix.
went off to shop at bugis.
woooooo.
she bought me stuff. hehe.
im so lucky. i got a very nice sister.
she bought a lot of things too lah.
and guess what.
one of the ladies in one of the shops asked her.
are u all students?
then dj said yes.
and she asked how come no class?
then dj said waiting for sch to start.
and the lady asked poly ah?
and dj said uni.
hahaha. can u imagine...
9years older and mistaken for being ard the same age.
she has an almost 2 yr old son somemore.
cool rite....
aft tt went to tanjong pagar to fetch bbrk from school. heh. hes so cute.
and he was so excited to see us and started being all goofy agn.
hahaha. after tt we went to clarke quay mrt to wait for djf and head home.
woo bbrk farted damn smelly then we thought he shat.
wanted to change diapers for him but end up...
he didnt even shit! hahaha
damn funny.
ok done.
another week has gone by with me staying home....
and nt earning any money.
my goodness..... sobs.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Thursday, March 29, 2012
had another awesome dream last nite.catching up with a friend i stopped talking to.
who offered me comfort and treated me with respect and.
how to say. erm. it was just a very nice dream.
like how did i even end up with such a great friend.
too bad it wasnt real and im still not talking to tt friend but anws.
irl that person is probably not like in my dream.
but i wld be happy to meet someone who was like in the dream.
but i think...
maybe extinct alr.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Monday, March 26, 2012
omg i had a fabulous dream while napping today.dunno why im so tired but yahh.. i napped for like 4 hrs and had difficulty actually waking up man.
anw. dream was.. haha. i dreamt i was slping on the sofa(which was where i was!) and when i woke up, i saw an extra bunny running around the house
and wondering how it got in.
it coincidentally was a white bunny with brown gray marks on both sides of her body that looked like two wings.
so at first i was like confused. like. was tt a bird or bunny.
hahaha.
then i thought it was a bunny bird which flew into the house cos how else cld it have came in rite!
so i was trying to get a good look of it and realised everyone was home alr.
and they all acted like it was such a normal thing that the bunnybird was around.
but anws. it was so smart at jumping up things. like jumping up the sofa and over it onto smthing else.
later on i realised there were two other hairless bunnies on another sofa. and when the bunnybird(ok by this time i alr realised the two "wings" were just patterns.) went to that other sofa i saw two hairless baby buns. omg so cute rite. haha. but anws. i was asking my sis why the hell there were so many bunnies in the house. she asked me to ask my mum.
haha. then it was actually she who brought them home saying that her boss treated them very badly so she brought them home.
haha. tts abt it.
i rem being very happy in the dream though. hhaha.
so lame rite. i know.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Thursday, March 22, 2012
sigh. im just feeling so depressed.
going out tmr but i doubt i will be very present..
=((
going back to st nix!
quite excited but it just reminds me that i am doing nth slacking ard at home as usual.
ahh shld have just gone back to kumon for like the time being.
at least earn some money. haha.
tts what i liked abt working there?
right when the hols starts i can start work and i have income..?
yeah..
nvm lorh. i guess. sobs.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
feeling so hopeless and nobody to talk to.sigh...
should i just apply to the zoo already?
deadline is 30th april...
=(
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
suddenly feel damn depressed about my not doing anything days. sobs. was thinking and feel tt i rly regret. hahaha. shit.
been scolding a lot of vulgarities in my mind these few weeks.
not very proud to say that. but it helps with the anger issues i guess.
turning love into hate makes it a lot easier.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Monday, March 19, 2012
i guess this might be very hurtful but honestly.i'd rather not have made some choices i made if i had known.
if i had to go to psb.
its all not worth it at all.
its ok if i skipped the TP part actually.
i'd rather not have known certain people.
and i'd rather moved on with my life faster...
=(
but ok.. some people i will be very sad not knowing actually.
sigh. but still.. i think.. it was not worth it.
i dont regret "not studying harder" cos i think i rly did?
i mean did do the best that i could.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Sunday, March 18, 2012
time to think of a plan Bif TP doesnt work out.
imma work in the zoo.
sigh. or maybe IBN?
double sigh.
rly thinking abt how 50 words helps.
some people say that they only look at it if you are alr in NTU and is appealing to change course.
sigh.
maybe i shld just head down to the agent to look at the possibilities of studying overseas.
haha
jokes.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Saturday, March 17, 2012
im just like constantly laughing the whole time. like idiot.but hahaha. happy whatt..!
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Friday, March 16, 2012
ytd morning went alllll the way to boonlay jurong point to meet up with kk, muni and lala. omg.
i think its been more than 2 yrs since the four of us met up.. maybe like 4 yrs actually. haha.
we kindof talked from 11am allll the way to like 3.3o??
nabila had to leave in between though.
but wow.
had such a great time.
and it really made me realise how wonderful that 2 yrs in jc was.
no matter how short.. a lot was done. =D
and.
they are the most supportive friends ever.
love them. =D
kk's TC dropped by to say hi too. haha
happy for her. seeing friends happy is the best thing..
went to imm after tt for a while to walk ard.=D
and i've decided to order hay from online instead.
ok cos so far ive only seen the shops online selling the brand that they eat. in the huge packet form.. can last longer yay.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
ok. a b+ did bring it up. sigh.im damn depressed abt it. actually i also dont know what i expected but i just keep feeling that i cld have done better definitely..
=(
argh.nvm.its over.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Thursday, March 15, 2012
results will be out tmr. and im damn worried. that it wont be up to my own expectations. sigh.
dont need to care abt gpa alr. i think. arghh.
nw tt i think abt it. it is highly possible tt my gpa may be pulled down if my mp grade is shit.
sobs.
=(((
it better go up rather than down. damn.
and even a b+ wont bring it up i think.
sigh damn scared now shit. =(
nothing lasts forever
lost`
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
crapp.. why do i even have to pay tax ah. in my 3 yrs of working in the same place i nv ever had to pay lorh.
omg the adult world is so complicated. damn.
sigh. what am i doing??
nothing lasts forever
lost`
super badly taken photos using my laptop. hahaha. they are going through their heavy shedding now i guess. combed my hand through chuchu's fur ytd and omg. a lot came out. and a huge tuft of pika's hair came out too this morning. but aiyah. i think tts cos they fought and chased each other this morning. haha. oops.
think this is the longest period i went jobless. and i feel damn uneasy abt it.
if only TP can get back to us faster. arghh..
i really cant wait to go back. seriously. or just cant wait to do smth.
im like damn unmotivated now lah. to do anything at all.
sian.
not exercising or sewing or cooking or baking or blading or learning a new skill. im damn boring.
and im thinking too much.
i shouldnt.
sigh.
nothing lasts forever
lost`
super badly taken photos using my laptop. hahaha.